~KiM~

LettinG U Go....

2010-11-07T01:02:00.005+08:00

I have waited for this answer very long....
Finally i get my answer.. thank a lot bro...
I don wanna think so much & don wanna be sad...
I think the best solution is to let u go...
Is good for u n me...
Love does not mean have to be togather...
1 heart is only for a person...
Thr isn't have enough space to fit in 2 person...
Letting u go is my decision...
I do hope that i did the best choice...
Hope u r happy wif who u really loves..
All the best & May God Bless u 2...
Cheers (^_^)

LoV3

2010-10-26T23:57:00.002+08:00

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is
the person who made you cry?
If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push!
Actions speak louder than words.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.
Some people make the world special by just being in it.
Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us. When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can
look beside you and your best friend will be there.
True friendship never ends. Friends are forever.
Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know
they are always there.
Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the
end.
Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave
footprints in your heart.

If u love something...let it go.
If it comes back to you its yours....
If it doesn't then it never was.

A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love. A hug is just a
hug until its from the one ur thinking of. A dream is just a dream
until u make it come tru. LOVE is just a word until its proven 2 u.

Heaven knows

2010-10-19T01:18:00.000+08:00

She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up,
Till I close my eyes.
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know.
And though she's so far away,
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me, where do I start
'Coz it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
But only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope & pray
'Coz heaven knows.
My friends keep telling me
That if you really love her,
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in time
I'll know she's mine
But tell me, where do I start
'Coz it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go
'Coz heaven knows
Why I live in despair
'Coz wide awake or dreamin',
I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave,
I'm shakin' inside
Why does it hurt me so?
Heaven knows... heaven knows.

New Study Life

2010-09-27T17:38:00.002+08:00

I have been started wif my new life for a week...
People keep asking hows my new life?? Lots people think i am enjoying my new life...
Now i am asking myselve, Hows my new life??
I think ok is my best answer.. I did not enjoy it much & is not like wat i expected...
I think that me myselve have problem in adapting myselve in class.. Is hard for me to mix up wif my classmates... Is also hard to understand some of the lectures teaching..
I keep on pushing myselve to be hardworking & tell myselve to study hard... But when i reach home, i will sit down to face tv n laptop...
I keep on remind myselve to be socialise.. But when i reach college, i am just silent.. Y am i being so uninteractive...
I do hope that there is changes on me..
Be a POSITIVE person...

Last Day At HYT

2010-09-17T10:10:00.003+08:00

Today was my last day work in HYT Food Industries....
I have been working here for 3 years...
From early i told myselve that i work as part time n for a short period only...
End up i become full timer here due to my BS paper.. Haiz...
Thr is up n down working here... Sweet n sour memories tat i will not forget...
I did really learn a lot from working in this company...
Not only on my job but also human personality & attitude...
I admit tat i did grow here n it did change my personality...
I will miss here & all my frens here..
Wif them, i have a better working life.. Thank to all of u...
Time pass very very fast..
Monday i gonna start my college..
Do hope tat it will change my life wif study life..
Wanna know more new friends & concentrate on my study...

JuSt 4 U...

2010-08-20T09:33:00.004+08:00

I know u might read this cos i know u got read my blog...
Do u know i feel happy when i know u did...
Cos this means u did care for me n wanna know wats happening wif me...
Now u r sitting in front of me...
We seem like normal colleague tat is busying wif our own work...
U do your work quietly...
We did speak, but mostly cos of work...
I feel tat u speak wif other more than me...
When speak wif other, theres smile on your face...
But when speaks wif me, most of the time wif serious look...
I know u might think tat i am also the same...
But tell the truth, i don like to being like this...
Deep in my heart, i really feel regrets..
Regrets wif every mistake i do...
Regrets of asking u come to work wif me...
When things happen, we keep silent wif each other...
When we talk bout our matters, u always say suan la, cos is already over...
But deep in your heart, u really can put all the matters away??
There's sure some scares in your heart on each argument we have...
And it will be compiled to be a big scares after some argument...
U might think tat i have change a lot...
Yes, i did... Theres changes in my emotion, attitude n personality...
Change to be someone tat u might not like & cannot stand on...
But do u think i am happy wif my changes...
The person tat talks n share out the problem is me...
No matter sad o happy things, i did share wif u...
But nowadays, did u do the same....
Don tell me, u have nth to share...
Don tell me, nothing happen to u...
Theres sure something to share each day...
Not tat i don care...
I did ask u, but u tell me nothing to share...
Nothing i can say, just knock n keep quiet...
Is been sometime, i din see the sincere smile n laugh on yr face...
Each time u show me the faked smile..
Do u know it makes me sad...
Really miss all the happiness we had last time...
I know tat time will not return...
But is all a wonderful memory for me...
I am really thankful...
No matter how, u still by my side n support me...
Giving me advice....

THANK YOU :)

Aaaaa......

2010-07-23T18:08:00.002+08:00

Aaaa.... I am really gonna explode.....
I don like being like tat... I don wanna face all this suffer d...
U might think tat only u r suffering from all this... but i wanna tell u... I might be more suffering than u....
I did say tat i care for u.... I cannot accept looking u moody n sad everyday... Seeing u keep silent n treat me like someone tat u don know...
U say tat everything is over n suan... But till the end u r same...
Come on.... Just tell me wat should i do now...
If u wanna me continue like this i really cannot face it.... Do u know tat i think of leaving this company cos of our argument... I don wanna spoild our frenship just cos of work...
But it seem like everything is too late d... Nothing i can do to save our frenship... really tired n suffer now.....
Y things always happen... Y can't we tolerate each other... I am really suffering... Suffering from all this is making me very tired....

Me Without My Soul, Brain N Heart..

2010-05-05T10:20:00.004+08:00

Today back to work from 4 days leave... Recently go out very frequent, enjoy enjoy n enjoy... But y??? Y i always feel bad... Wats happening wif me...
It seem like my heart n brain is seperated from my body.. Heart feel bad n seem like hard to breath... Brain keep asking me to think but thinking nothing... Is just blank on my mind...
Feels so desperate n suffer... Wanna cry it out loud but no tears drop from my eyes... Wanna shout out loud, but hard for me to shout it loud.. Wat can i do?? Wat i really want??
Dear fren, u might think tat i am weird this few days... Is really not cos of u all.. But is my own problem.. I am the one who created the problem... I might think too much n being weird.. I did, i did try to change my mind... But it really hard, really really hard... I am real sorry sorry if i made u all feel uneasy... I know tat i am like a body without my soul, brain n heart.. I really did feel so... Feels like thr is no energy in me... When quiet, feel lazy to talk n remain silent.. when gila, make myself gila n laugh non stop...
Frenz... I really hope u all can pull me up now.. I really need yr caring hand to make me strong... Please fren, just a little might help a lot... Pls... I beg u.. I might not tell u wats happening... Not cos i don wanna share wif u all but i really don know wats on my mind.. aaaaa :'(

My FeElInG nOw.... :(

2010-04-30T14:39:00.001+08:00

I don know wats my feeling n mood now...
I am happy n in a good mood this morning… Having u accompany me…
Thinks tat today might be a good day for me…
But after knowing something, my mood change….
Happy just ran off my mind n replace by moody….
Actual I do know wat I want, but is impossible to get it…
Being someone that is not really me…..
Keep thinking should I continue being like tat….
Am I really happy being like tat….
No no, I am not happy…. :(
Keep worrying bout this n tat…
Worry being hurt…
Worry being betray…
Worry being stupid…
Worry wat ppl might think…
Since tat moment, I keep on worrying…
Is it worth for me to do so…
I might go more deep…
I might hurt deeper….
I might be stupid…
But wat can I do now….
Please tell me…
Tell me wat should I do…
Tell me how to make u Happy…
Tell me how to make u trust me…
Tell me how to make u Believe in me…
Please Tell me… Please……

WaT m I tHiNkInG???

2010-04-19T01:44:00.002+08:00

Wat m i thinking right now??? Is already 1.50am, n i am still online here... Tomolo have to wake up early somemore lo.. haiz....
I really don know lo.. But my heart keep calling me to write down my feeling now...
Things keep happen to me lo... Things tat i don know how to solve... My tears keep drop but i don know wat to do...
I am really suffer lo... i really scared i may seriously fall down one day... i really wish to talk to u, but i don know how to do so...
I also don know y things always happen to us... after facing a challenge, theres come another challenge... how long do i need to face all this challenge?? how long n how much challenge tat i still need to face o i can face... i really don know...
Whenever i ask u, u say nothing... I really do hope is nothing, but i can feel it n is not nothing... I do hope i feel wrong.. Do u know that whenever i ask u, i need to take out my braveness to ask u??? i do scared tat i might say something wrong o say something tat hurt u...
Wat can i do?? Am i care too much d??? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.........
I am a failer... Fail in everything... Fail in my Work, Fail in my Study, Fail in my Frenship, Fail in my Relationship, Fail in my family... Everything fail.... Then y should i stay in this earth??? Y Y??? i am totally a big rubbish in this earth....

MeMoRy...

2010-04-15T16:40:00.003+08:00

Is been sometime i nvr post my feeling here d... Being lazy to type it all out.. O mayb i have a good life now.. Does not have to express my feeling here lo...
Blog is really a place for me to share out my feeling... N also a place for me to recall my memory...
There are lots of thing i wanna share out, but i am too lazy to share out all lo... hmm... i just share out some that is still in my mind....
1st thing in my mind is SHE Concert lo... Is the 1st time i went to a concert... Keep thinking weather to go o not, till the end i bought the ticket.. hehe... When to the concert wif my dear n meet up wif evon n her fren lo.. we did enjoy a lot in the concert, it seem like a open air karaoke lo... is worth to go n nvr regret buying the ticket... A day tat i will not forget... Thank dear for accompany me go & thank keong for fetching us to bukit jalil....
2nd thing is 1st time meet wif net fren lo.. Bobo & Sonia... We went to wong kok at 1u for our lunch lo.. 1st impression of them is bobo look so cool, whereby she is wearing black spec... While sonia is so cute n seem so playful... haha... After sometime at 1u, we went to ikano to see pets... I did had a great day n is happy to know them lo...
Next is angie 1 month old party lo... Congrats to Keong & catherine lo.. We did have a good talk tat night till all of us r tired... & i notice something from someone... haiz... Really hope that she knows how to protect herself n love herself more... Body is ours n only we ourselves can protect lo... Welcome Angie to this world lo.. hehe... Hope that u can grow up Happily lo.. Smile

:(

2010-03-05T16:37:00.001+08:00

Today i am emotionally tired...
After knowing something, my heart so pain n feels more tired… Don really knows how to explain my feeling now… But I feel the sadness in me…
True Friend is someone that will be by our side when we need them…...
Tolerate wif each other & care for each other....
Take out our mask n being trueself…
Believing each other & have a sincere heart…
Share our happiness & sadness together…
Yes… I admit that I might not a good fren… But I am a human being…
I have my weakness n also strength…
I am emotionally really really tired today… Being fan since early in the morning…
Really very tired……… Don knows how to express my feeling out… :)

LoVe OuR SeLf...

2010-03-04T10:51:00.002+08:00

Yester night i watch a reality show... Is a real story bout a 16 yrs old gal... She have to rely on a machine to stay alive cos of her heart cannot function itself... Thank god that thr is kind ppl tat donate the heart to her.... Now she can stay alive like normal ppl but have to take medicine for her whole life....
While watching it, my brain comes out a lot of thing... She was young n sick last time, but she seems happy... she look like a very cheerful gal... Think of myself, i am still in a healthy mode, but does not know how to appreciate my life... Eventhough i know that my weight will cause me lots of problem in the futher... but i just don k bout it n eat watever i wanted to... It seem like i am killing myselve slowly lo..
Yester someone told me to go on diet cos of my health lo.. Saying tat i might cause lots of sickness....
I am a person tat fear to pain.. thinking of serious sickness might bring me to lots of pain.. i know my own body, i know my body is weak... Anytime from today i will fall from sickness, it makes me real worried... Wat i can do is to control the way i eat, i under tat there is no turning bck.. but i should not make it more worst lo...
Sometime i will think tat if we don love ourselve, how can we love others??? If we don care bout ourselve, how do we care for other??? If we cannot control ourselve, how to we control other???? Thinking of it, i am a real failure... I cannot even take k of my own body....
Dear Frens, i hope tat u get to learn from the gal.. Being someone tat can live happily & face challenge wif brave n strong... Take good k of yr body & must love yrselve lo.. (^_^)

I'm YoUrS.... (^_^)

2010-02-24T16:47:00.001+08:00

Happy Happy Happy....
Hope Wat U Say Is True...
I Take Things Seriously...
I Hope u 2 lo... :p

Temple & Pai Nian

2010-02-23T11:12:00.002+08:00

On the 19th night, me, nic & paul join dear n family to a temple tats call "tong zhang si", don know the correct spelling.. It takes 1 hour journey to reach there lo (Banting)... Reach there around 10... After taking some photo not long, they announce tat it gonna close lo.. We din make to see all the nice lightning there lo... sad case... Then we when back to pj lo...

Nic & paul was tired, so they when home to sleep lo.. While me n dear go fetch h may n shyan for tea lo.. We when for tea at ss2 Wong Kok for 1 hour than think of going second round tea lo.. But other suggest to come my house to chit chat lo... So they come to my house & chit chat till late night lo.. Is a tired night but is also a great night lo.. hehe

20th is nothing special lo.. Waking up early cos of mom yelling.. After prepared lunch, sit in front of computer & tv till night time lo.. Being moody n lonely lo.. Drink beer alone than when for a sleep... ZZzzzZZZz

On the 21st, When to church early morning for worship.. After worship go tea wif church mates lo.. Then meet up wif my dear, liz, shyan, h may, nic & fifi for a lunch n Pai Nian lo... We had our Lunch at Puchong Restaurant lo.. Having Lou sang wif them is enjoyable lo.. The food is also not bad lo.. hehe... We started Pai Nian from Nic house, Dear house, h may, liz, shyan n finally my house lo.. hehe.. We eat, drink n gamble almost every house lo.. hehe..

Night we went to Raymond Tan house lo.. They had celebration for "bai Tien Kong"... Is the 1st time i join this kind of cele lo.. Eat there n talk talk lo... Is been a bit hot n bored there, so we plan to go out for "Tong Shui" lo.. hehe... When to ss2 "Tong sui Go go".... Then bck to Raymond House again lo.. Happy that get to meet some primary n secondary fren lo.. hehe...

Is been a long day tat day wif all the laughter.. Thank to all my fren to make this moment memorable lo.. Pai Nian is not cos of the Ang Pau, But the moment that we had together lo.. Hope every year we will do the same thing.. hehe.. All the best to My Fren lo... Have a prosperity Year... WooHoo...

CNY 2010

2010-02-22T17:31:00.002+08:00

Is been sometime I din update my life here d lo…. Being busy on my work for CNY project… This yr CNY is a bit diff & excited lo… First time drive back to kampung using my Malaysia ferari, use around 3 hour reach sitiawan perak. N get to go Ipoh to cele wif dear n her family lo.. hehe

1st day of CNY, start my balik kampung journey from 8.30am & reach around 11.30am. Is really excited & got “man chu kan” when reach a ma house lo.. We have our lunch at our a ma house, and went to meet my grandpa for my second lunch lo… Watch movie at grandma house till night then have my dinner at both grandma house lo.. hehe… Then sleep lo…

2nd day, have lunch at grandma house… Then when for a movie at sitiawan new cinema… Is not bad & the sit still ok .. After the movie, we went for a lunch then back home to my grandma house lo.. Bro n sis all went to cc to on9.. So left me n senny stay at home to sing k lo.. Sing all the old song… it was fun lo, most important is foc lo.. My uncle rent a k box machine that only have old song lo…hehe..Then went to a ma house for dinner lo.. We eat bbq small bird for supper lo… hehe… Then ZZZzzzz

3rd day, wake up late. Senny dad invites us for a lunch lo… While my a ma having steamboat for lunch… We though of eating at restaurant, so we nvr join for the steamboat lo… It is so regret lo… We went to a school hall that we have to take our food … It only have mee, mihun, curry chicken, egg & few types of kuih lo… Back to grandma house, sit & rest a while… then fetch bro n sis for lunch again lo… Then bck to grandma house for a short nap lo… Then my aunt called me to bck a ma house for dinner cos she cook for us… Tat night really unhappy lo, everyone reject me from going to Ipoh lo.. haiz… But I did wish to go… We went to Mcd for small planning wif bro n sis, till the end we go eat only lo.. hehe…

4th day, wake up early in the morning… Excited & nervous lo… Being brave to tell uncle tat we not going bck to pj wif them n going to ipoh lo.. Lucky nvr kena shoot lo.. hehe… When for breakfast… then go final visit to a ma n aunty house lo.. Then drive to Ipoh lo… Reach Ipoh using 1 n half hour lo… When in to ipoh parade for our lunch n walk walk lo… Bought 2 T-shirt & short pants lo… hehe… My bro n sis go CC to on9, while I sleep in the CC lo… Night meet my dear then go steamboat dinner together wif her family lo… Most of the time we laugh than eating there lo.. Then back to hotel to rest lo… Have to thank dear sis tat help me to get the room lo… If not i might sleep in the car d lo.. Night chit chat wif dear, bro n sis whie playing card lo… Zzzz around 2 lo…

5th day, When breakfast wif dear lo… The funniest part is my mini ferari have to fit in 6 ppl n we don know the direction lo.. Enjoy our Dim sum thr lo.. Yum Yum… Then fetch my bro n sis bck hotel, while me, dear n senny go purchase famous tao fu fa lo.. Bck hotel to enjoy it while packing things to back pj lo.. We went to ipoh parade for a while then bck to pj lo.. Use about 2 hour plus to reach pj lo…

Is been a tired journey.. But it is fun lo, eventhough is a bit bored at hometown.. really got a lot of "man chu kan" during this CNY lo.. hehe... My CNY is all about eat eat n eat lo.. hehe...

Ipoh Trip Wif Fren

2009-12-14T14:15:00.003+08:00

On 8 Dec 09, I wake up like usual i go to work lo... Prepared & drive out my house around 8.30 lo... I nvr told my parent tat i take leave to ipoh lo, so i must act like i am going to work.... haha... I go to may yee house, then follow her & her mom to pasar....
Then go fetch huan may & king to eric shop lo... While waiting for them, we go to yoyo shop to play wif her son lo... Then eric come fetch us... We go to cheras to fetch eric "dear" & we go eat ban mee thr lo...
Then we start our journey to ipoh lo... Everyone is excited but some is tired lo.. I am tired but i am awake lo.. haha... When we wanna reach, everyone is excited for the tau fu fa lo... But when we reach, the tau fu fa shop is close lo, should be finish selling d lo... All so disappointed lo.. We go buy salted chicken & some cookies then go eat ipoh chicken rice lo...
After eating we don know wat to do, so we when to sitiawan just for food lo... It take another hour to reach sitiawan lo.. Firstly we go to teluk batik as lim wish to go.... Take some photo then we go for our dinner lo... The food is not tat nice lo... so we decide to go another place to eat mee... but the mee stall is more dissapointed, we order 3 plate for 7 ppl but only finish a plate.. haha...
Then we drive bck cos is late d & have nothing to eat d...

My 21St BiG DaY... :p

2009-12-12T12:43:00.002+08:00

On 7 Dec 2009 Monday, I went to work lo.. Not much mood working but i have to teach a gal how to prepared invoice lo... It makes me so sleepy cos i cannot get to touch the computer lo... But lucky got dear teman me sms to make me awake lo...
Work till 2 then go fetch king & eric lo, we went wong kok ss2 for our lunch... after that go fetch may yee & lim from may yee house lo... we went to 1u & go to watch couple retreat lo... is a comedy & nice movie lo... Actual may yee watch tat b4, but she say watch it again so that i become happy cos she say i seem like moody lo... After movie, i fetch may yee home & when bck home to prepared for dinner lo...
Tat night rain non stop lo... May yee go fetch h. may & shyan then me lo... We have a great dinner tat night... it a bit seem like gathering lo... long time don have big gathering wif them d lo... haha... After eating, we went to sense cafe at IOI mall Puchong lo.. Sudden ppl sing birthday song & they bring out a cake for me lo.. we eat the cake & take lots of pic lo....
Then may yee call me to choose a present from a paper bag... I have chosen the right 1, but she pass me the left 1 & called me to open lo... Is a cage wif a birthday card inside lo... After few minutes, she say the both present is for me & pass me another present... I opened it, is a perfume inside a "mak tou yao" container lo... haha... Actual i have been thinking of buying perfume for myself, so happy tat she bought for me lo... Thank dear for the present lo... love it & will appreciate it lo...
Then we went to Kaka bah kut teh at kepong for supper lo.. haha... Sudden we think of going Ipoh lo, while we eat, we plan on the ipoh trip & finally the trip is on...
I when bck home wif happiness & excitement lo... haha... Really thank a lot to dear may yee, king, eric, shyan, senny, paul, nicole, catherin, keong, lim & h.may lo for all tat they have done for me lo... I did have a great & memorable day lo... ^_^

6 Dec 2009

2009-12-12T12:17:00.003+08:00

On 6 Dec 2009 Sunday morning, as usual i went to church for worship... After worship, me, king & peony when to Secret Recepi 1u for some cheese cake while waiting for other youth member to join us for lunch... We went to TGIF for our lunch, there was 20 of us... is been some time we does not have a big gathering d lo... Most of us share the 2 course meal, the entire bill is almost RM500 lo... After finish eating, we take lots of pic.... Is a enjoyable lunch wif all my sis & bro in Christ lo.. Thank a lot for spending me a great lunch....
After lunch, me & king went home for some rest lo.... Think of coming out for dinner, but din make it cos i have my dinner wif family lo... Me & my family when to kepong manjalara for steamboat, after tat we went to desa park city for walk walk lo... We play & enjoy at the park, makes me think of my childhood life lo... Thank a lot to my mom for being caring & loves me no matter how naughty i am... :p
Go back home around 11pm lo... watch movie a while then go rest in my room... playing yoga position wif my sis, making all of us laugh lo.. sudden senny say wanna when downstairs, then she came back to the room.. Not long later, i saw may yee, liz, king n eric lo... They bring a cake for me & give me surprise lo.. Then we went downstairs to eat the cake & some photo lo.. Not long later liz say she have to go bck & may yee follow her lo... Left me, king & eric, then we when to the playground for some chit chat lo... make us think lots bout last time & is real fun talking thr lo...
I am happy at first for the day... but started a bit moody when i went home from lunch lo... feels a bit sad, but after receive the surprise my mood change good & real happy lo.. :) Thank to 4 of u lo...

NiCe WeEkEnD...

2009-11-30T10:21:00.003+08:00

I did have a nice weekend... Friday go for drum practise, wash car & go ikano wif my sis to window shopping lo.. Night teman nic n eng may eat at wong kok, then go murni for dinner lo... think of go desa park city for a walk, but cos of raining we change to go jinjang to makan lo.. lala, japanese siput n sotong...
Satur is our youth trip lo.. wake up at 6.30am n out around 7.30 lo.. Went to sg buloh for breakfast then head to sungkai.. we went to a private pool cos the public pool is dirty n lots of ppl lo.. the private pool cost us RM75 per hour, but it really worth it... It is clean n we have our own time thr lo.. Next we went to a restaurant tat famous wif pork leg, the taste is not bad n is very cheap lo.. We also visit a old hystorical castle, then went to Ipoh lo... I miss out the tau fu fa... haiz... After dinner we bck to pj lo... is a tired but enjoy day...
Sun when to church for worship then go lunch wif king, peony n chris at sakae sushi in the curve... Then we went sing k at neway puchong wif may yee, king n huan may... sing from 1.30 till 7 lo... Then we decide to go imbi for steamboat, sad tat the restaurant is closed, so we when to another restaurant for dinner lo.. Really enjoy gather wif fren...

Nowadays The Kim...

2009-11-17T11:54:00.002+08:00

Being sometime i nvr post up blog d lo...
Nowadays i am a human tat don k much bout my work... Most of the time reach office sharp 8.30 & bck home not late than 6pm... but i did take the responsibility to finish up my work of the day...
Around 3 more week, my 21st birth comes d lo... some ppl will think tat birthday is just a date to remember when they were born... but seem like i take birthday as a big day of my life... it could be a new kim n a good start for me.. keep on thinking of the changes tat i have to do b4 tat day... telling myself kim getting older... but still don have own future & objectives of life...
Thinking anything tat i have regret from the past of my life... yes, i did regret wif some of the mistake i do & being a person tat waste a lot of my life doing nth...
I did have a nice family & fren, thank god for giving me all the best & all the challenge tat make me grow more matured....
Thinking of setting some target for myself till end of this year.... hope tat the result will be seen by end of the year.. god pls strengthen my heart n mind to meet the target...

SaViNg...

2009-11-03T17:07:00.003+08:00

Starting from this month, i need to start saving up my money lo.. I know is a bit too late to do so lo.. i work for more than 1 year, but my saving is damm little... haiz... Hope tat i manage to save up my money lo..
Yester we celebrate huan may birthday at puchong neway lo... Even though not much ppl, h may, nic, shyan, may yee n me... but it is fun lo... Early enjoy the buffet then enjoy singing till 1 lo.. Hope tat h may is happy wif the celebration lo.. hehe
Working is really bored lo.. Everyday come to work wait for lunch time, then wait for finish work lo..I really need to study hard for my bs in this coming exam lo.. I must pass it so tat i can continue my study lo.. Think of can continue study really cheer me up.. Time past really fast lo.. Now is already end of the year, 2 more month have to say bye to 2009 n welcome 2010 d lo..

(^~^")

2009-10-29T12:40:00.002+08:00

Been a long time nvr blog d lo... Sudden think of blogging now... haha
Yester night i have a weird dream... Normally dream will be forget when we wake up..
The weird thing is i still remember the dream clearly lo.. haha... It makes me think bout the dream even i know tat it is so unreality lo.. hehe
So sleepy a, had a heavy lunch just now.. haiz..

Eat, eAt n eaT...

2009-10-14T14:39:00.002+08:00

After eating mcd for lunch, i feel so sleepy n tired lo.. really hope to pause the time a while, so tat i can take a power nap lo.. hehe
Last week was eating week, i ate non stop since thursday lo.. i think my stomach gonna burst 1 day lo.. haha...
On last thurs, when to puchong for dinner to celebrate shyan mom birth lo.. the food is not bad but the best is the wine lo.. actual my mood not tat gud, but after cheering few glass of wine, my mood go better...
On Fri night, thr is nothing to do... so me, shyan n king go for supper at a so called "duck duck" restaurant near kd lo... we order a quarter of duck, curry fish head, satay n grill sotong... 3 of us drink 10 glass of herbal tea... it remind us when we yam cha at mamak last time, 3 ppl 14 glass of teo o limau ice lo.. haha
Satur lagi chun... early morning when to mayang for nasi lemak breakfast. Then go to pyramid to line up for htc phone... when reach thr, the person in charge told us tat ppl is queuing since 1 in the morning... then go eat mamak wif manager....
Around 2 went to 1u wif may, shyan, king n man for lunch... we ate bbq plaza lo.. n have ice cream for dessert lo.. May have to when home for dinner around 5... 4 of us have nth to do, so when for pasta zan mai... i order a mini pizza n mini spagety to share wif shyan lo.. Night we went to kepong for curry fish head, is not bad n not really exp lo.. after eating still don wanna go home, so we get a red wine from shyan n drink at king house till 2am lo.. Can u all guess how much we ate tat day.. i think of it also got a bit scary lo.. haha...
Lastly is sun lo, morning when to church, eat at papa rich for lunch n have our youth meeting lo.. After meeting go yam cha wif nic n king at secret recepi lo.. back home n rest a while.. nite we when to puchong for charcoal steamboat.. the food still not bad but the place is very hot lo... Then we went for bao bing for dessert...
This is the weekend tat i ate non stop lo.. i don dare to think bout how much weight i put on again lo... haiz... Food kill me... ppl die cos of no food, but i think i die cos of stomach burst by food.. haha :p

MoOdY lIfE...

2009-09-24T09:31:00.002+08:00

Moody... Y am i so moody n feels emo... early morning, my mood goes bad... wat happen to me a...
Wat can i do to myself n my life... wat am i really thinking... n wat i really want...
I really don know... time past real fast, but my life seem like stop some where...
Being a lifeless person with no goals n motivation.. work for money... money for go out entertainment n eat... this is me n my lifeless life...
Mayb i know wat i really want, but i am running from it n don wanna face it... since i know is a failure n by myself things will not work...
I am really a failure that scared to face new thing n challenge... hope tat there always a direction to show me wat to do... but who can really help me other than myself... i always tell people tat, decison is in our own hand... say is really easy, but i really cannot do so.. keep finding ppl opinion... mayb i k too much on wat ppl think on wat i do n who i am.. wish to b a strong person n a person that can help fren no matter what happen.. but i become weaker n weaker person.. that sometime even run away from fren problem... try not to put myself in their problem... being a uncaring person.. am i really like tat o being too tired...

DeAr 21St BiRtHdAy....

2009-09-23T09:32:00.002+08:00

On sept 4, after her exam she went to 1u for dinner.... me, king n shyan plan to give her a surprise on that night... so i have pakat wif her sis to know wat time they bck home lo.. around 11.30 we reach her house... she was in the toilet, n we brought the cake n wait for her to come out... she got a bit shocked when saw us lo... after singing birthday song, we take some photo n enjoy the secret recepi cheese cake.. yum yum..
On sept 5, we plan another surprise for her lo.. she though of going out dinner wif family but actually i pakat wif her sis d lo... haha... we had our dinner at tenji lo.. have a moderate environment n food lo... i prefer jogoya lo.. hehe...
After dinner, we went to kepong for second round lo... we eat the jelly cake n takes lots of pic lo.. n we continue to sing k at puchong... sing till 4 midnight n we plan for breakfast st sg buloh.... but cos of still too early, they went to my house, so i can go for a bath n go to king house for him to bath lo... though of the dim sum shop will be open at 6.30 but when we reach thr, they still preparing the dim sum lo... lucky small keong is staying near by, so we went to his house to sit n go to eat around 7 lo... all is sleepy but enjoy lot lo... haha
I think she have a nice celebration n happy wif it lo... Hope u happy always lo... (^-^)

BeSt RaYa HoLiDaY... :)

2009-09-23T08:53:00.003+08:00

Today is the 1st day of work after raya lo... Feels lazy n no mood to work lo.. haha..
Miss my holiday n hope i have a longer holiday lo....
I have a nice holiday.... On sat after work i went 1u wif king for lunch at ajisan ramen, then go home prepared to cele senny birthday at subang neway... 1st time we went thr, the food still ok but not much choices lo.. But i am happy to meet my fren thr lo.... Knompy.... haha... n we go at kayu until 4am lo... Tired but enjoy...
The next morning, i went ipoh wif may yee n family lo... I really enjoy at ipoh... Most of our time is in the car.... but the best thing is eat, eat n eat lo... haha... I will not forget the taufu fa shop lo... it is famous n lot ppl eat... the taufu fa is very licin lo... hmm... delicious leh... Come back to pj at mon, they even bring me to dinner only fetch me bck...
Really wanna thank a lot to dear, her sis n mom.... Paiseh la... eat n stay also they spend me... even buy pau pau for me lo... haha....
On tue, we actual go sing k at puchong neway, but cos of we r late our room is taken by other walk in customer.. so we go sing k at 1u... after sing k we went to yuan for steamboat... then i go buy man chiang kuih... we go king house to eat n play wif his dog n back home around 11...
Is really a nice n enjoy holiday... 1st time go out wif may yee family... it will b keep in my mind... haha.. :)

MoOdY sAtUr...

2009-09-19T10:09:00.002+08:00

Long time never post blog d lo... today is a satur but i still need to work lo.. the whole office is only me alone... feel quiet n lonely lo.. face the com n hearing some soft music... is relaxing n makes me start thinking ... but really like the quiet office... haha...
Don know y, i am moody today... but i hope to have a cheerful day... think of later going sing k n celebrate my cousin senny birthday, i should be happy... but my mood is..... haiz...
Miss my happy time lo.. hope that time can goes back to secondary time... no worries n only to enjoy my life...everyday go school n have fun wif fren lo... but time tat is pass cannot return lo..
Wat is life??? Born, childhood school, primary, secondary, college, work n wait to die... i believe that there is a purpose y god creates human... i should do some changes in my life.. i should not pass my life meaningless.. pls god, give me your big hand n hold me up.. without u i am nothing in this world..
Is it a right decision to put fren in my top list of my life?? i think my life without fren is meaningless... love n cares from my fren is really importand to cheer me up n make me grow stronger... Yes, i did makes lots of mistake n it might hurt my fren... but i can apologize n change anything tat i am wrong... I do under tat a word sorry din means anything but i believe time can show u all that my sorry mean something, just tat frens, pls give me a chance to prove it out...
Really wanna thank some of my fren tat cares me a lot.. stand at my side when i face problem n gaves me lots of advice... all your advice n support mean a lot to me n i will keep it in my mind...

THANK YOU FRIENDS....

ShYaN cElEbRaTiOn....

2009-08-03T14:44:00.002+08:00

Long time nvr post d lo.. bc wif my work n going out wif fren lo...
Last sat is so meaning ful lo... is the 1st time i learn how to make cup cheese cake...
Early morning when for breakfast n buy cake ingredient at megah lo.. king is my sifu lo.. haha... i cannot remember much how to do lo.. need king help give me the recepi again lo.. haha.. but we r enjoying doing the cake lo.. the cake is for shyan burf lo...
Fetch shyan n dear around 2 lo... syhan look pretty tat day but dear looks like very sick lo cos she really sick d... fear to talk to her lo... she is madd cos of hungryness, tired n wait for me to long lo... sorry for that... :( but after eat sweet given by king, she feel better d lo... luckily lo.. :)
Then we watch lost of the land, is a comedy movie... funny but a bit wu liao lo... the lizzard man is like m'sia cicak man lo.. haha....
after movie, we go to hartamas ole ole bali for dinner lo.. is a nice environment restaurant wif nice food... the price also ok lo... then we went to wong kok for the celebration... hope that shyan is happy wif it lo.. haha... i am happy tat day also lo... cheer up o gal....

LiFe....

2009-07-16T08:52:00.002+08:00

Kim, i really don know wat to say to u... being stupid n cannot tolerate.... y u always wanna make a exciting outing, but end up all going bck without mood... i under all r very tired lo.. kim, can u be who u r like last time.. being cheerful n motivate everyone to laugh n smile happily.. y do u bcome a suck person tat destroy the happy environment tat make fren n yourself unhappy...
U r a suck ppl tat fail in frenship, work, n also yr lifr... haiz... u have a happy family wif good fren, but u don know how to appreciate them... being a greedy person, tat expect more from them even they treat u so gud... i beg u to think wat u should do in yr life.... cheer up....

MiSs OuR mEmOrIeS...

2009-07-15T14:32:00.003+08:00

Yester night i have nothing to do, so i go clean up my drawer lo...
see back all the wishes card n present from my lovely fren...
Making me miss all of u so much & remind me all our memories lo..
Studying life really have more happiness & memories than working life o..
seeing all the smiling face at the photo... studying without much stress lo..
Miss my study life wif u all lo... haiz.. sad... :(

HeAlTh....

2009-07-14T15:43:00.002+08:00

As usual, i am working but ular-ing now lo.. haha
I feel tat something happen to my health.. get headache easily lo... is not really pain but can feel it... i am worried bout my health, as all of us know tat fat ppl get sick easily... Since my ear get infection last time, i concerned bout my health lo..
I always think tat i sure die cos of sickness... my nose keep raining non stop, thinking tat 1 day my nose sure kena infection n mayb need operation... i am really worried, but not brave enough to see doctor.. haiz.... y am i so penakut??
And i eat without thinking of my health... aiksss... y am i don love myself, it seem like i am killing myself slowly lo... aaaa... don know wat to say to myself....
Nowadays thr is so many sickness tat is hard to cure n spread easily... making me more worried... haiz...
I know my family n fren r concern bout my health... i am sorry tat making u all worried n really thank a lot... u all have to take good care of yourself lo... pray for a good health....

I aM rEaLlY sOrI n ReGrEt.... :(

2009-07-13T14:59:00.003+08:00

So bored at office, so i play some quiz at facebook about my personality n frenship....
The ans given say tat i am a great fren n a gud person wif lots of fren... i know tat it cannot been trust fully but it let me think of my life now lo...
i really feel the changes of myself tat will also effect ppl life.. i am not who i am... being quiet, unhappy, moody, emotional, saying lies and protactive... this is not how i should be...
But wat can i do to chg bck to who i am?? being a friendly n happy person...
dear, i know u miss our life last time & think of being like last time... but so do i...
i know u r unhappy but we hv to face the challenge together, no matter how many times i say sorry n how deep i regret wif all the mistake i done, the time will not chg bck n our life has to go on...
I learn the word jealousy, best fren n true fren from u... really thank for all your k n patient to me..
B wif me, even i hurt u badly n giving me chg to maintain our frenship... sincere from my heart, thank you a lot my dear n i hope our frenship go stronger n maintan forever.. really hope to get yr trust bck... :(

TrIp To KuAnTaN...... ReLaXiNg....

2009-06-29T17:51:00.004+08:00

On 26th June morning, just like usual i went to work... but i am excited of going to kuantan at night .. hehe... something happen tat make me think tat this trip will not be as fun as i expected...
Nicole come and fetch me around 6.30 to puchong... then nicole do some packing n we went for dinner at ss2... around 9.30 o'clock we start our journey to kuantan.
Reach kuantan around 12am, we go to our room to have some rest... n we go to the beach to walk walk, it is windy n cooling lo... then we went to mcdonald for our supper...
The next morning, we went for breakfast... then we drive around 30minute to a place whereby i forget the name of the place just to eat a malay food called sata; is a bit like keropok lekok but is wrap in santan leaf wif cili padi n santan lo.. is really dellicious cos i like spicy lo.. hehe
next station is kemaman cafe to drink coffee, hear tat is the best coffee shop at kuantan... after all the eat n drink, we go to see turtle n go to the beach to play wif water... is really relaxing n fun...
At night, we hv a dinner at a restaurant... most famous is the tom yam fish n claypot salted pork... wow, is really dellicious n cheap lo.. 5 of us eat 5 dish (fish,prawn,sotong,vege,pork), it only cost rm65.00. whr can u find a place that is so cheap??? After eating, we went to buy satay for our supper, is also famous in kuantan.... it is delicious without the satay kuah lo... late night we went near the beach for cold ice n walk walk around the beach... is windy n relaxing lo...
Next day we wake up late n we drive around an hour to "li min san" for lunch lo.. our lunch is eating famous mee thr, the taste we cannot find at pj o kl... then we go walk walk around thr... n drive bck to kuantan just to eat bck the tomyam fish n satay... but after eating the dinner, we don feel enough n satisfy like 1st time we eat.. haiz... so we go purchase satay n drive bck to pj lo... we all sleep inside the car n only uncle awake cos he need to drive lo... hehe... so cham... he drive the whole journey at kuantan...
Thank you May Yee, Nicole, Uncle n Huan May for the trip lo.. hehe... i hv lots of fun n really relaxing lo.. hehe... it will b my nice memory lo.. hehe :)

2009-06-17T18:51:00.003+08:00

Now is almost 7pm, i still at office lo.. got thing to do, but i just sitting in front of the com n on9 lo...
lazy to do my work d, but don hv de feel of going hm also lo... haiz...
nth much to do at hm, n no place to go lo... so i rather work late a bit n go home straight rest without thinking of going out... haha
Yester we go eat bbq plaza cos their having promotion whereby all we can eat and only cost 9.90+ per person, we ate really lots till everyone also very full lo.. haha
but yester mood is not really gud lo, everyone seem so tired after study o working .. haiz..
Early everyone is excited n happy, but after sometime all seem no much mood n tired d lo..
however i enjoy the night... hope u all r happy also lo...

BeInG cArInG....

2009-06-12T10:42:00.003+08:00

Long time nvr post a blog d lo.. mayb cos of having nice n bc moment so forget to post blog lo...
yester my mood turn bad n make me think of express my feeling lo...
blog is really a nice place for me to realease my feeling..
My emotion n mood chg easily lo... sometime don even know who to share wif... but thank to buddy tat i can share my problem wif lo...
Am i thinking to much o being over caring o being over protactive....
Mayb i hv to learn how to don think so much n not to care so much lo...
but sometime we don know wat ppl will think of it.... if i think of doing changes to myself is being gud, mayb for other is being bad lo.. haiz
Wat should i do.... don think so much lo.. just smilez, n lot will chg lo :)

:(

2009-06-01T13:25:00.002+08:00

Today is the 1st day of June, i have to learn to work alone without any fren with me...
today i also don know wat am i thinking, but my heart feel pain n wanted to cry...
i have a very nice and memorable weekend, ty to all my fren....
really appreciate it n thank for everything...
watever happen i will try to be strong, n will not think too much... haha
Just a smilez, will change the life... haha :)

BaD DaY... :(

2009-05-27T13:51:00.003+08:00

Today result out d lo, is still the same result... i fail again lo.. actually i have expected it... but this time i really sad of my result, mayb cos i really prepared for my exam n tries to changed my life lo.. but now, nth i can do with it and just continue with my suck life lo... after seeing the result, i don know wat am i thinking lo... my mind is empty but feels like crying...
Now really don feel like working lo, don know wat i want.... haiz...

My TaRgEt.... :)

2009-05-25T16:02:00.002+08:00

Nowadays no much mood to work lo, when i am on the way to working... i am thinking to c doctor to check on my ear n take mc lo, cos no mood to work at all lo.. so i called bck hm n ask my mom lo, but she advice me not to take mc n go for work lo...
The whole morning, i do nth much in the office but just online lo.. feeling so moody n sad.. just telling myself not to think so much n concentrated in working...
I nvr when out for lunch lo, just stay at office with eating bread n rest lo..
Nowadays i hv not much appetite, mayb is a gud thing for me so that i can go on a bit of diet lo... haha
Thinking of making some changes in my life lo, wanna make my life more colouful n happy... mayb i have to set some target in my life to fulfill... but tilll now i still cannot think of a target lo... haha... mayb my 1st target is to keep fit lo, so that i hv better health n peronality...
Nowadays ppl looks outside beauty more then inner beauty lo... 1st impression is very importand... if on the 1st impression u look gud, in their mind thinking, u r a gud person lo...
Even finding job, they look on your outside beauty lo... if i continue looks like this, mayb is difficult for me to know more frens n get a better job lo..
Yeah, i think on diet will be my 1st target lo... make myself look healthier n nicer lo..
but i know it is not easy lo, i need to hv the passion n it may take a very long time lo..
So god, pls gv me the passion and let me know wat is patient lo... haha
Good luck n hope i will meet my target lo... :)

My 1St TiMe....

2009-05-23T12:26:00.004+08:00

On 16 May 2009 is my first time to the club...
Going with dear, eric, huan may n some of dear fren...
We go around 10.15 n reach around 11 lo...
The first time going to club making me a bit happy n nervous... but i get to confort myself with the song thr lo.. hahaha... really lots of ppl tat day... even stand also no much place lo.. haha
Around 2.30 we out of the club to have some fresh air lo... haha.. n bck hm around 4.30 lo...
Erm, quite enjoy the night n the song thr lo..
the happiest is that my first time going to the club is with dear lo... haha
Thank dear bringing me to club o....

FeElInG sOmEtHiNg WrOnG....

2009-05-22T11:28:00.002+08:00

i don know wats happening... but i know thr sure something had happen..
i can feel the communication within us got a bit of breakdown...
really suffer, i don know y is it like this.... telling myself not to think so much n act like nth happen... but i really cannot do it....
god pls tell me wat should i do...
am i really think too much o wat, pls tell me god...
really sad but i wat aslo cannot do.... aaaa........ god....pls .... save.. me..........
pls make me as strong n happy as last time... don make my mind think lots of thing...

BaD HeAlTh... :(

2009-05-21T12:39:00.003+08:00

This whole week, my ear feeling not well lo n cannot hear well...
1st time see doc, he say my flu effected my ear n call me to eat medi lo..
after eat medi, my flu has cure a bit but my ear still the same ...
so i when bck to see the same doc again, he told me that my ear has inffection...
call me to eat medi n spray liquid into my ear lo..
after 2 day, i can feel tat my ear is no more pain but still cannot hear well lo... haiz
really worry bout my ear now lo.. if after i finish the medi, my ear still cannot hear well then how?? i don wish to see specialize lo.. i really hope tat my ear can be ok after eating medicine..
I am really not brave enough to face any operation, i don mind eating medicine lo.. mayb i hv think too much la... Just hope my ear get well soon lo..
Thank to frenz n dear tat r concern on my health n sickness lo..
I will take gud care of myself n drink lots of water lo..
Frenz n Dear, u have to take gud care of yourselve also lo... nowadays is easy to get sick o..
Drink more water n enjoy your day lo...

HaPpY n UnLuCkY dAY!!!

2009-04-20T14:35:00.002+08:00

On 16/4, as usual wake up in the morning then go to work..
working is normal on tat day but i am excited for the night time...
cos i am going to eat sushi king with nicole, nicole bf, huan may n my dear may lo... hehe
5 of us has eaten around 40++ plate of sushi tat cos us RM110++ lo...
all of us eat till very full lo..
so me, may n huan may plan to go pasar malam to walk walk lo...
after finish walking, something interesthing happen to my car .. hehe...
my car cannot start ... no more battery d lo.. then may started to panic but we r still laughing... haha... really funny lo, cos they though i am playing wif them ...
then i call king, yeye n eric for help, cos they r having celebration at wong kok...
they try to transfer battery but cannot transfer ..
luckily yoyo husband came n save us lo.. really a hero.. hehe
cos he came n save us even he sleep d lo... hehe
however thank a lot to all my fren that help n accompany me lo.. hehe
The whole repairation cost RM250 a... my mom call me to pay her bck RM150 since i work d lo..
but i still haven pay her bck n plan not to pay her lo... haha
wat a bad daughter right????

MoNdAy MoOd...

2009-04-13T11:47:00.002+08:00

Today really don feel like working lo....
but cos of wanna save my leave, so i choose to work half day lo...
sien, my mood now is waiting for 1 o'clock lo..
wat also nvr do, just sit down in front of the computer...
haiz... early morning kena complaint by boss ...
saying tat i nvr do my thing well, n go bck hm early without finishing my work...
sien early morning get a lectural class. ... haha
today work half day, then go makan n walk walk lo...
hope today can enjoy my day lo... should be.. haha

ChAlLeNgE...

2009-04-10T10:12:00.003+08:00

Y is there so many challenge for human to face???
i know that every challenge will make ppl become stronger n being mature..
but to face all the challenge is really tired n suffer...
In this 2 years time i really feel tat i had gone through lots of challenge...
I am really tired to face all this challenge, making me sad and moody...
But y is so many challenge for me to face??? y can't i just live happily???
O mayb cos of i have think too much n brain thinking too much rubish...
But pls god... pls god help me... i really hope to take away all the challenge...
I don know how long i still can fight wif it.. i scared i will fall from facing the challenge... and finally run away from all the challenge...
Dear god, i am really weak... really weak in my emotion control, feeling n mental...
Pls god... pls god teach me to become stronger....
But really thank you god for putting some sincere n gud fren around me to support me...
FrEnZ rEaLlY tHaNk YoU a LoT....
Watever happen, i really need your trust n accompany... your trust is really very important to me... i know i have made u feel i am not a trustworthy person... but pls give me a change n trust me... PlSSSSSS............

MoOd Of ThE dAy...

2009-04-09T09:13:00.002+08:00

Wat a person feeling every morning is very importand...
If the person feels happy in the morning, probability will be happy the whole day...
but if the person is unhappy, angry o moody; it will effect the whole day lo... haiz
This morning i am happy lo n thinking tat today will be a great day....
but when reach office, i have given things to do but is ok....
then i talk wif a gal that i don like her attitude, whenever we talk seem like we r argue-ing.. haiz.
spoiled my happy mood today.... really sien lo....
hope that my mood will be ok soon lo... hehe

HeLp!!!!

2009-04-02T11:51:00.003+08:00

Today really bad luck lo...
Early morning fall down n broke a bit of my leg finger... haiz...
Reach office, 1 of my boss gv me lots of thing to do.... really sien a...
i hv already lots to do, but she wanna give me more....
Wat to do, just do as much as i can lo.. hehe
Thinking of everything will be fine, but it is not....
Things keep coming to me, but i don know how to settle it???
who can help me o save me from all my miserable???
Mayb all the things is created by myself... aaaaaa.. really don know wat i want a... haiz....
stupid, stupid, i am really stupid aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..................

Is It Ok To Be PrOtEcTiVe????

2009-04-01T16:58:00.002+08:00

I feels tat nowadays i am being more protective....
Is it ok to be more protective????
Y am i being like tat??? I really don under lo...
Always try to protect myself when talking to ppl...
Thinking wat they say is sincere to me o not, thinking mayb their using me o treat me as a fool...
whether i am thinking to much o over protactive.....
Anyone can help me!!!!! Haiz

DeAr GoD.....

2009-04-01T08:41:00.003+08:00

Dear god, pls save your child here...
i am really tired of being myself, being myself that don know wat to do in my life.
God i know i am a sinful person, makes lot of mistake in my life..
Please give me your big hand, hold me up & teach me how to be strong..
Dear God, i know i hv go far far away from u, pls god pls save me away from the syaitan...
Bring me close to u and follow the right path of yours...
I am really suffer since i feels that i am far away from u...
I don even feel that i am a special person that have any good side of me...
The only thing i have is all the bad and stupid side of me...
God please save me, i am really stress and desperate now... don know wat can i do to save myself and my life....
Dear god, pls save me............ hold me tight.......

LoNeLy SaTuRdAy !!!

2009-03-21T11:47:00.002+08:00

Today is satur lo, most of the ppl thinking of whr to go n wat to do....
but i am just sitting in the hse facing my com lo.. haiz... sien a...
Dear & Dar also not free to layan me lo... some of my fren also hv their own activity, then wat bout me??? haha.... sit at home whole day???
shyan just call me and tell me tat she on the way to genting to meet my dar.....
my heart & brain keep calling me to go, but my physical are so lazy to go... y am i like this??? haiz.... i think dar sure think i no heart lo..
miss dar so much & waiting for the day dar coming back lo... hehe
Dar i will fulfill my promise to u this time lo... hehe

My FuTuRe N LiFe...

2009-03-19T14:40:00.004+08:00

I have failed in my bs agian... haiz... i already sit this paper for 5 times d...
I also don know need to resit how many times only can pass this paper a... haiz
Early thinking is wanna study until Degree... keep waiting this paper to pass so i can continue study... but at last still fail again... so wat can i do...
I wait until my brain is dead d, scared even i continue study, i also cannot pass my exam, then wat for study... right???
And now i plan to continue working only lo... sien a... i have no other choice lo, just to continue working lo... haha... hope my decision is right....
Other then just working, wat else can i do??? wat can i do to increase my knowledge and enjoy my life??? is really lifeless when working lo.. not much entertainment d lo...
luckily dear is working wif me lo, so sometime can play n argue wif her lo... so the time can pass faster lo.... haha.. but if the days have come and she is not working wif me d.. then how???
I think i will feel unusual lo... haha...
Just finish my lunch lo, and feel so sleepy now lo.. hehe.... aaaaaa... help me aaaaaaaaa.....

BoReD... BoReD... BoReD...

2009-03-04T15:27:00.003+08:00

I am working now...
but really lazy n sleepy to work lo...
My eyes like got bit bengkak and is painful lo...
make my eyes feel tired n wish tat i can sleep now lo...
i have really lots of work to do a.... cos of my laziness, i am writing blog here lo.. haha
Don feel like working lo... always ular at office.. end up nvr finish all my work lo.. haiz...
wat can i do... tired but still have to work lo... this is wat we call human life lo.. haha
After work go home... Just sit at hm and watch tv... haiz... really no entertainment lo...
I want entertainment a.... but wat to do???
No Money, No Fren To Out Wif, No Place To Go, No Direction Of Life......
So the only thing is just sit at home only lo... haiz....
Kids will always hope to grow faster, thinking tat adult have more freedom & can get watever they 1...
N Adult always think of the happiness when they are a kids... The life without the stress...
This is the philosophy of human lo... Will not appreciate wif wat they hv & always ask for wat they don hv lo... haiz....

CoLlEgE fReN gAtHeRiNg

2009-02-26T11:44:00.002+08:00

Last wed (18/2) night, dem4 have a gathering at wangsa maju...
The gathering is organize by gugu lo... Thank you for organizing it o....
Really long time we have no gathering d lo... miss all of them lo...
That night we went to Neo for steamboat buffet lo...
After finish eating, we have a birthday surprise for jia yih lo... cos the next day is her birthday (19/2)....
I reach home around 12 lo.... is a bit tired cos of the journey... haha
I will post up some of the photo soon lo... :)
Hope to have another gathering soon.... haha

VaLeNtInE dAy!!!

2009-02-16T15:39:00.002+08:00

This day should be a happy n romantic day for the couple...
Thinking wat to give to their partner n wat to eat....
but how bout all the people tat r still single n available???
Single also can hv fun n enjoy at this day lo...
I went out wif fren, go for steamboat for our dinner...
really lots of ppl n hard to find place to eat lo...
finally we eat at a corner shop at sunway, forget the name d lo...
after eating, we went to puchong small hill to see the view lo...
is a nice place lo.. but a bit dangerous lo..
then we went to esther house to chit chat lo...
thank to dar esther, shyan n huan may teman me lo.. hehe
Hope u all enjoy your day also lo.. hehe

NighT LifE....

2009-02-05T09:33:00.002+08:00

The night life of me really sucks a...
everyday after work, go home... sit at the hse for just few minutes.. then i will feel like going out of the hse.. but when go out, call few fren but nvr pick up the call, then i cannot think of who to call d...
Is it tat i have not enough fren in my life?? but i am grateful tat have u as my best fren to accompany me.. thank you dear...
I will try to continue survive and stays at home lo...

A mEaNiNgFuL mOvIe...

2009-02-03T09:51:00.009+08:00

On 31st Jan, i went for movie wif dear, huan may, nicole and king lo...

We went to see Bride wars... We though is a movie about wedding, but the whole movie is about frenship... the importand and meaning of frenship...

Liv and Emma are best friends who since childhood have planned every detail of their respective weddings. At the top of their bridal "must have" list: a ceremony at New York's ultimate bridal destination, the Plaza Hotel. Now, at age 26, they're both about to get married; they're about to realize their dreams; and they're about to live happily ever after. Or maybe not. When a clerical error causes a clash in wedding dates--they're now to be married on the same date!--Liv, Emma and their lifelong friendship are put to the ultimate test. Liv, a successful lawyer who is used to getting what she wants, including the perfect job and the perfect man, won't settle for anything less than the perfect wedding she has dreamed of for years. Emma, a schoolteacher who has always been good at taking care of others, but not so much in looking after herself, discovers her inner Bridezilla and comes out swinging when her own dream wedding is imperiled. Now, the two best friends who'd do anything for each other find themselves in a no-holds-barred, take-no-prisoners struggle that threatens to erupt into all-out war.

The movie is really touching and let me think a lot of things bout frenship.... and i even realise the mistake i have made... a stupid and fool mistake... :(

Am I a FoOl???

2009-02-02T09:49:00.002+08:00

In this week time, i really feel tat i am being a fool...
y am i being a fool?? being someone stupid and being use by ppl.....
am i easily being use o this is call "kind" to ppl...
Frens i am sincere to all of u, so pls don make a fool o use me!!!
I don know wat happen to my brain, keep makes me go to a wrong direction...
think negatively and makes me go moody easily....
god please save me, i don wanna continnue be like this...
i want to have a cheerful and positive life, kick away all the negative thinking...
I am really regret on my life and frenship....
sorry tat i hurt u and lie to u... i know u hated ppl tat lies to u....
I am sorry and i really don indent to do so... i believe the trust on me is being less also...
y am i doing the wrong decision to hurt u and it is really unworth to do so...
aaaaaa.......... wat a stupid person i am.... hope everything will be fine.....

HaIz.....

2009-01-19T14:32:00.002+08:00

Long time nvr post blog d lo...
busy wif my working lo...
Today as usual busy wif my working also lo.... but today feel really bored working lo....
CNY is near lo... I think i will be staying at pj this year lo...
first time celebrate cny without going bck to hometown lo... it should be happy whereby i always nag my mom to go bck pj when i am at hometown....
but this year celebrate cny at pj, i also don hv any special feeling lo... mayb will just stay at hm wif bro and sis lo....
Nowadays, my brain really blur a.... mayb cos of too long time nvr use brain d...
I must faster continue my study, so tat i will use my brain...
everyday my brain is blank, wanna to think something... but seem like nth out...
i am really useless... don know wat to do wif my own life....
don know wat i want and who i wanted to be..... no dream, no hope.. nothing... haiz

ByE 2 2oo8...

2009-01-02T20:54:00.002+08:00

On the 31st dec 2008, me and a few of my frenz having bbq in front of my house playground...
Even there is not much ppl, but we really enjoy it...
Bbq and eating is really fun lo, but the cleaning and washing also not bad lo... cos we r playing wif water lo.. haha
Erm, around 11.30 we start our water war.. whereby 5 of us a team lo...
me, eric, may yee, peony and my bro a team lo.. whereby lim, esther, king, ah yong and ah shyan a team lo... our early strategy is to burst the galz balloon first... but seem like the guys r planning to burst eric balloon, so we chg strategy lo... burst all the guys balloon 1st...
after a few minutes my team mates all loss and left me alone wif 3 ppl in other team....
3 tackle me alone, at last i loss also lo... haha
Every game the loss get punishment but this time the wins get punishment... haha
their team being poiled cold ice water... cold o.....
At sharp 12, each of us take a balloon and throw up the sky....
We even get to see firecrackers... is really nice whereby we no need to push wif other... haha
After playing, all go bath and we go to have tomyam for our supper.... haha
this is wat we do at the end of 2008 lo... it is really memorable cos get to be wif frens....
and start a new year wif them....
thank you a lot for joining me the bbq and start a new year together... haha
Wish u all have a nice year and all your dream come true... cheer up lo...
MAY GOD BLESS YOUR NEW YEAR lo..... :) always lo...

To all my Frens....
If i hv do anything wrong on year 2008, i am sorry lo...
sometime i don even know if i have done wrong, so if got, u can tell me lo...
erm, i cherish all the day we go through together lo... is really a nice memory...
In the beggining of the year, hope our frenship will be more strong lo...
Yeah, really cherish all our frenship.... miss u guys lo.... :)

ChRiStMaS..

2008-12-25T20:48:00.004+08:00

Hihi, long time nvr post blog d lo... Normally post blog at office, but cos of the com at office need to be format... so i cannot post blog lo... haiz.. really much to write... but lazy to write out all d.. haha
Christmas is just over lo, and new year is coming soon lo...
Life and time passes really fast. but in this whole year, wat have i done??
I feel tat my life thru out this year is a bit of wasting of time... nth much improvement in myself...
really no improvement in myself, but become more worst... even my spiritual drop... haiz...
wat should i do?? mostly ppl hv new plan and target in a new year... but for me, nth...
don know wat should i study, wat i really 1, and a lot of question mark... really headache...

Pd GaThErInG...

2008-12-15T10:16:00.003+08:00

On friday, i get the confirmation of going to PD... It is a trip tat organize by a group from friendster... only galz r allowed to join this gathering... so guys is not allowed... haha
Around 10 i take the lrt to masjid jamek to meet dar esther, then we take train to bukit jalil.. When we reach the time is still early whereby they will only fetch us at 12.30, so we went for lunch and walk walk nearby the bukit jalil...
At 12.30 they come and fetch us... but we only start our journey to PD around 2... there is 7 cars going along lo...reach PD around 4.30... finally reach the bungalow we stay, but the bungalow seem so old, is different looks from wat the organicers see from the web.. so 1 car of ppl go argue with the management.. Luckily they chg us a better bungalow whereby is more near to the beach...
When we reach, we go to the beach while others is preparing dinner for us.. we hv BBQ for our dinner... is nth much to eat but it is still ok whereby we can slowly bbq and get to know the ppl there... the ppl there is nice and frendly lo...
The most romantic part is a gal birthday, so the partner go to the beach and make a message with candles.. is really nice, the surprise makes the gal happy till drop tears a... haha... And also got ppl wanted to confess love, but failed.... Hearing the sound of sea and walking on the sand is really nice, feels peaceful and harmorny lo... haha... but there is no stars.. haiz... the environment really makes me feel relax and nvr think of rubbish... haha
K lo... i hv to work d lo... continue my journey tomolo lo... haha.. when i free i will post up some photos lo...

My DaY & LuCk...

2008-12-12T09:53:00.004+08:00

I told tat on 8 dec i bang a car and my RM50 has fly away right? haha..
is ok lo... cos there is always a give and take lo.. haha
i gave away RM50 but i earn a lesson also lo...
i also earn a hp from my aunt on 7 dec whereby she don know how to use the phone so she gave it to me lo... and on 10 dec i purchase a reload card...
i gave him RM30 but the person gave me a RM100 reload card, i only notice when i reach hm.. haha.. from this i earn RM70 and cos of the birthday bonus i earn another RM50 lo.. haha

Yester is a public holiday lo.. though of just going out with liz and yo yo...
cos my dear says tat she is not free to date with me lo.. sad
so i go and pick up liz round 12 cos though of go to sing k at 1... but cos of some reason and yoyo bringing baby along, so we cancel singing lo...
then we went to wong kok for our lunch. while we eating, my dear sudden pop out.. it is really a surprise lo.. haha.. really happy to see her a...
then they bought me a cake to celebrate my birthday again lo... haha... surprise...
really thank you to my dear, liz, yo yo and baby lo... haha
after eating we go walk a while lo...
then i bring baby to kidsport, mayb is my mistake of bringing him in whereby i cannot get to teman my dear... sad lo... then she went to find her fren lo... liz and yo went shopping..
around 6.30 we out from 1u lo... yo and liz need to go home d.. so left me and my dear lo..
though of bringing her for tea and chit chat wit her, but she is very tired... so is cancel...
then i sent her hm and i also go home d lo... haha

My lUcK...

2008-12-09T10:23:00.005+08:00

Y am i so sui yesterday a???
around 7 i go fetch my sis from 1u...
on the way back i accidently kiss ppl car, avanza near by kayu ara...
then we stop by the road side and hv a look...
nth happen to my car and his car a bit old d... got scratch behind...
i also not sure is me cos the scratch o earlier on also got the scratch d lo.. haha
but then the person call me to gv him RM100 to settle it...
then i told him i still a student and don hv so much cash...
then i gave him RM50... haiz... my RM50 fly d lo... sad... haiz
but i think to repair also no need RM50 lo... haiz.. suan la..

20tH BiRtHdAy CeLeBrAtIoN...

2008-12-08T10:10:00.017+08:00

Thank you a lot to my dear, dar and all my lovely friends tat celebrate birthday with me..

At 6.30 , i go fetch eric, yong and dar from lrt, eric told me tat he drive.. so ok lo...

then they bring me to JoGoYa for our dinner ..

After we reach for a moment, i saw my dear, shyan, king and lim came, it is really happy and surprise cos i nvr think of they will be coming cos my dear told me tat she is not celebrating my birthday whereby she need to fetch her sis to the airport and shyan told me tat she is going to pd

After eating, i though tat they straight go hm d...

but they fetch me to genting klang station 1 for tea lo...

Then we went hm around 12.30 lo...

ty a lot lo my frenz... i will always remember this day...

It is really a surprise for me.. i will precious this moment and u all 2... love u all.. muackss....

ThE nEw Me...

2008-12-06T10:12:00.009+08:00

Yester after work, i went for a hair cut at the curve peek-a-boo...

shows the old and the new me... give some comment ya.. haha The old me....

The New Me...

so wat u think?? Ok a??

WeEkEnDs....

2008-12-02T11:39:00.003+08:00

I went up to genting with dar and miko (senny gf) around 4 by taxi..
when we reach all of us r hungry so we went for lunch at kfc...
we sit at kfc for a long time while thinking wat can we do at genting... while waiting senny and family to reach genting....
we go walk around outside and it is really cooling outside, this is y i like to go genting...
The best thing is we get to see sunset at a carpark, is really nice...
waited for so long, at last senny and family reach.. so we went to room and have some rest..
The midnight at genting is a bit of lonely and moody... go outside to feel the wind blows alone...
When sitting outside, it is very windy... feels the cool and my brain started to think a lot of rubbish again... the problem is sometime i also don know wat am i thinking... seem like there is a devil inside me..
i don really like to be like tat but wat can i do??? who can help me??

GeNtInG...

2008-11-30T13:25:00.004+08:00

Later i am going up to genting lo... hope can get some enjoyment and cool down myself lo...
Don think too much lo... no use of thinking rubbish d... haha
ppl say life should be full of happiness lo... so enjoy lo...
must cheer up always lo.. don wanna be the moody kim...
yeah... happy happy and happy lo...
wanna out to genting lo... bye...

Am I wHo I aM??

2008-11-24T10:01:00.000+08:00

Am i really who i am???
Recently a lot of my frenz say i hv chg... Do i???
If chg to be a better kim, i am happy with it but seem like i am not... i started to be someone evil & previous kim is lost... but is this wat i wanted it to be???
The night is really making me crazy... makes me thing of a lot of rubbish tat makes me feel moody and lonely... wat can i do to make my nights more happier??
mayb i am too cares with wat frens think bout me... wanted to be the best person in their mind... but sometime its makes me feel really tired...
Frens is really very importand to me... Without frens mayb my life is meaningless...
i am sincere to all my frens but do they the same... i precious every moment tat we went through... and hope our frenship will nvr ends...