I don know wats my feeling n mood now...
I am happy n in a good mood this morning… Having u accompany me…
Thinks tat today might be a good day for me…
But after knowing something, my mood change….
Happy just ran off my mind n replace by moody….
Actual I do know wat I want, but is impossible to get it…
Being someone that is not really me…..
Keep thinking should I continue being like tat….
Am I really happy being like tat….
No no, I am not happy…. :(
Keep worrying bout this n tat…
Worry being hurt…
Worry being betray…
Worry being stupid…
Worry wat ppl might think…
Since tat moment, I keep on worrying…
Is it worth for me to do so…
I might go more deep…
I might hurt deeper….
I might be stupid…
But wat can I do now….
Please tell me…
Tell me wat should I do…
Tell me how to make u Happy…
Tell me how to make u trust me…
Tell me how to make u Believe in me…
Please Tell me… Please……
Friday, April 30, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
WaT m I tHiNkInG???
Wat m i thinking right now??? Is already 1.50am, n i am still online here... Tomolo have to wake up early somemore lo.. haiz....
I really don know lo.. But my heart keep calling me to write down my feeling now...
Things keep happen to me lo... Things tat i don know how to solve... My tears keep drop but i don know wat to do...
I am really suffer lo... i really scared i may seriously fall down one day... i really wish to talk to u, but i don know how to do so...
I also don know y things always happen to us... after facing a challenge, theres come another challenge... how long do i need to face all this challenge?? how long n how much challenge tat i still need to face o i can face... i really don know...
Whenever i ask u, u say nothing... I really do hope is nothing, but i can feel it n is not nothing... I do hope i feel wrong.. Do u know that whenever i ask u, i need to take out my braveness to ask u??? i do scared tat i might say something wrong o say something tat hurt u...
Wat can i do?? Am i care too much d??? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.........
I am a failer... Fail in everything... Fail in my Work, Fail in my Study, Fail in my Frenship, Fail in my Relationship, Fail in my family... Everything fail.... Then y should i stay in this earth??? Y Y??? i am totally a big rubbish in this earth....
I really don know lo.. But my heart keep calling me to write down my feeling now...
Things keep happen to me lo... Things tat i don know how to solve... My tears keep drop but i don know wat to do...
I am really suffer lo... i really scared i may seriously fall down one day... i really wish to talk to u, but i don know how to do so...
I also don know y things always happen to us... after facing a challenge, theres come another challenge... how long do i need to face all this challenge?? how long n how much challenge tat i still need to face o i can face... i really don know...
Whenever i ask u, u say nothing... I really do hope is nothing, but i can feel it n is not nothing... I do hope i feel wrong.. Do u know that whenever i ask u, i need to take out my braveness to ask u??? i do scared tat i might say something wrong o say something tat hurt u...
Wat can i do?? Am i care too much d??? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.........
I am a failer... Fail in everything... Fail in my Work, Fail in my Study, Fail in my Frenship, Fail in my Relationship, Fail in my family... Everything fail.... Then y should i stay in this earth??? Y Y??? i am totally a big rubbish in this earth....
Thursday, April 15, 2010
MeMoRy...
Is been sometime i nvr post my feeling here d... Being lazy to type it all out.. O mayb i have a good life now.. Does not have to express my feeling here lo...
Blog is really a place for me to share out my feeling... N also a place for me to recall my memory...
There are lots of thing i wanna share out, but i am too lazy to share out all lo... hmm... i just share out some that is still in my mind....
1st thing in my mind is SHE Concert lo... Is the 1st time i went to a concert... Keep thinking weather to go o not, till the end i bought the ticket.. hehe... When to the concert wif my dear n meet up wif evon n her fren lo.. we did enjoy a lot in the concert, it seem like a open air karaoke lo... is worth to go n nvr regret buying the ticket... A day tat i will not forget... Thank dear for accompany me go & thank keong for fetching us to bukit jalil....
2nd thing is 1st time meet wif net fren lo.. Bobo & Sonia... We went to wong kok at 1u for our lunch lo.. 1st impression of them is bobo look so cool, whereby she is wearing black spec... While sonia is so cute n seem so playful... haha... After sometime at 1u, we went to ikano to see pets... I did had a great day n is happy to know them lo...
Next is angie 1 month old party lo... Congrats to Keong & catherine lo.. We did have a good talk tat night till all of us r tired... & i notice something from someone... haiz... Really hope that she knows how to protect herself n love herself more... Body is ours n only we ourselves can protect lo... Welcome Angie to this world lo.. hehe... Hope that u can grow up Happily lo.. Smile
Blog is really a place for me to share out my feeling... N also a place for me to recall my memory...
There are lots of thing i wanna share out, but i am too lazy to share out all lo... hmm... i just share out some that is still in my mind....
1st thing in my mind is SHE Concert lo... Is the 1st time i went to a concert... Keep thinking weather to go o not, till the end i bought the ticket.. hehe... When to the concert wif my dear n meet up wif evon n her fren lo.. we did enjoy a lot in the concert, it seem like a open air karaoke lo... is worth to go n nvr regret buying the ticket... A day tat i will not forget... Thank dear for accompany me go & thank keong for fetching us to bukit jalil....
2nd thing is 1st time meet wif net fren lo.. Bobo & Sonia... We went to wong kok at 1u for our lunch lo.. 1st impression of them is bobo look so cool, whereby she is wearing black spec... While sonia is so cute n seem so playful... haha... After sometime at 1u, we went to ikano to see pets... I did had a great day n is happy to know them lo...
Next is angie 1 month old party lo... Congrats to Keong & catherine lo.. We did have a good talk tat night till all of us r tired... & i notice something from someone... haiz... Really hope that she knows how to protect herself n love herself more... Body is ours n only we ourselves can protect lo... Welcome Angie to this world lo.. hehe... Hope that u can grow up Happily lo.. Smile
Friday, March 5, 2010
:(
Today i am emotionally tired...
After knowing something, my heart so pain n feels more tired… Don really knows how to explain my feeling now… But I feel the sadness in me…
True Friend is someone that will be by our side when we need them…...
Tolerate wif each other & care for each other....
Take out our mask n being trueself…
Believing each other & have a sincere heart…
Share our happiness & sadness together…
Yes… I admit that I might not a good fren… But I am a human being…
I have my weakness n also strength…
I am emotionally really really tired today… Being fan since early in the morning…
Really very tired……… Don knows how to express my feeling out… :)
After knowing something, my heart so pain n feels more tired… Don really knows how to explain my feeling now… But I feel the sadness in me…
True Friend is someone that will be by our side when we need them…...
Tolerate wif each other & care for each other....
Take out our mask n being trueself…
Believing each other & have a sincere heart…
Share our happiness & sadness together…
Yes… I admit that I might not a good fren… But I am a human being…
I have my weakness n also strength…
I am emotionally really really tired today… Being fan since early in the morning…
Really very tired……… Don knows how to express my feeling out… :)
Thursday, March 4, 2010
LoVe OuR SeLf...
Yester night i watch a reality show... Is a real story bout a 16 yrs old gal... She have to rely on a machine to stay alive cos of her heart cannot function itself... Thank god that thr is kind ppl tat donate the heart to her.... Now she can stay alive like normal ppl but have to take medicine for her whole life....
While watching it, my brain comes out a lot of thing... She was young n sick last time, but she seems happy... she look like a very cheerful gal... Think of myself, i am still in a healthy mode, but does not know how to appreciate my life... Eventhough i know that my weight will cause me lots of problem in the futher... but i just don k bout it n eat watever i wanted to... It seem like i am killing myselve slowly lo..
Yester someone told me to go on diet cos of my health lo.. Saying tat i might cause lots of sickness....
I am a person tat fear to pain.. thinking of serious sickness might bring me to lots of pain.. i know my own body, i know my body is weak... Anytime from today i will fall from sickness, it makes me real worried... Wat i can do is to control the way i eat, i under tat there is no turning bck.. but i should not make it more worst lo...
Sometime i will think tat if we don love ourselve, how can we love others??? If we don care bout ourselve, how do we care for other??? If we cannot control ourselve, how to we control other???? Thinking of it, i am a real failure... I cannot even take k of my own body....
Dear Frens, i hope tat u get to learn from the gal.. Being someone tat can live happily & face challenge wif brave n strong... Take good k of yr body & must love yrselve lo.. (^_^)
While watching it, my brain comes out a lot of thing... She was young n sick last time, but she seems happy... she look like a very cheerful gal... Think of myself, i am still in a healthy mode, but does not know how to appreciate my life... Eventhough i know that my weight will cause me lots of problem in the futher... but i just don k bout it n eat watever i wanted to... It seem like i am killing myselve slowly lo..
Yester someone told me to go on diet cos of my health lo.. Saying tat i might cause lots of sickness....
I am a person tat fear to pain.. thinking of serious sickness might bring me to lots of pain.. i know my own body, i know my body is weak... Anytime from today i will fall from sickness, it makes me real worried... Wat i can do is to control the way i eat, i under tat there is no turning bck.. but i should not make it more worst lo...
Sometime i will think tat if we don love ourselve, how can we love others??? If we don care bout ourselve, how do we care for other??? If we cannot control ourselve, how to we control other???? Thinking of it, i am a real failure... I cannot even take k of my own body....
Dear Frens, i hope tat u get to learn from the gal.. Being someone tat can live happily & face challenge wif brave n strong... Take good k of yr body & must love yrselve lo.. (^_^)
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
I'm YoUrS.... (^_^)
Happy Happy Happy....
Hope Wat U Say Is True...
I Take Things Seriously...
I Hope u 2 lo... :p
Hope Wat U Say Is True...
I Take Things Seriously...
I Hope u 2 lo... :p
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Temple & Pai Nian
On the 19th night, me, nic & paul join dear n family to a temple tats call "tong zhang si", don know the correct spelling.. It takes 1 hour journey to reach there lo (Banting)... Reach there around 10... After taking some photo not long, they announce tat it gonna close lo.. We din make to see all the nice lightning there lo... sad case... Then we when back to pj lo...
Nic & paul was tired, so they when home to sleep lo.. While me n dear go fetch h may n shyan for tea lo.. We when for tea at ss2 Wong Kok for 1 hour than think of going second round tea lo.. But other suggest to come my house to chit chat lo... So they come to my house & chit chat till late night lo.. Is a tired night but is also a great night lo.. hehe
20th is nothing special lo.. Waking up early cos of mom yelling.. After prepared lunch, sit in front of computer & tv till night time lo.. Being moody n lonely lo.. Drink beer alone than when for a sleep... ZZzzzZZZz
On the 21st, When to church early morning for worship.. After worship go tea wif church mates lo.. Then meet up wif my dear, liz, shyan, h may, nic & fifi for a lunch n Pai Nian lo... We had our Lunch at Puchong Restaurant lo.. Having Lou sang wif them is enjoyable lo.. The food is also not bad lo.. hehe... We started Pai Nian from Nic house, Dear house, h may, liz, shyan n finally my house lo.. hehe.. We eat, drink n gamble almost every house lo.. hehe..
Night we went to Raymond Tan house lo.. They had celebration for "bai Tien Kong"... Is the 1st time i join this kind of cele lo.. Eat there n talk talk lo... Is been a bit hot n bored there, so we plan to go out for "Tong Shui" lo.. hehe... When to ss2 "Tong sui Go go".... Then bck to Raymond House again lo.. Happy that get to meet some primary n secondary fren lo.. hehe...
Is been a long day tat day wif all the laughter.. Thank to all my fren to make this moment memorable lo.. Pai Nian is not cos of the Ang Pau, But the moment that we had together lo.. Hope every year we will do the same thing.. hehe.. All the best to My Fren lo... Have a prosperity Year... WooHoo...
Nic & paul was tired, so they when home to sleep lo.. While me n dear go fetch h may n shyan for tea lo.. We when for tea at ss2 Wong Kok for 1 hour than think of going second round tea lo.. But other suggest to come my house to chit chat lo... So they come to my house & chit chat till late night lo.. Is a tired night but is also a great night lo.. hehe
20th is nothing special lo.. Waking up early cos of mom yelling.. After prepared lunch, sit in front of computer & tv till night time lo.. Being moody n lonely lo.. Drink beer alone than when for a sleep... ZZzzzZZZz
On the 21st, When to church early morning for worship.. After worship go tea wif church mates lo.. Then meet up wif my dear, liz, shyan, h may, nic & fifi for a lunch n Pai Nian lo... We had our Lunch at Puchong Restaurant lo.. Having Lou sang wif them is enjoyable lo.. The food is also not bad lo.. hehe... We started Pai Nian from Nic house, Dear house, h may, liz, shyan n finally my house lo.. hehe.. We eat, drink n gamble almost every house lo.. hehe..
Night we went to Raymond Tan house lo.. They had celebration for "bai Tien Kong"... Is the 1st time i join this kind of cele lo.. Eat there n talk talk lo... Is been a bit hot n bored there, so we plan to go out for "Tong Shui" lo.. hehe... When to ss2 "Tong sui Go go".... Then bck to Raymond House again lo.. Happy that get to meet some primary n secondary fren lo.. hehe...
Is been a long day tat day wif all the laughter.. Thank to all my fren to make this moment memorable lo.. Pai Nian is not cos of the Ang Pau, But the moment that we had together lo.. Hope every year we will do the same thing.. hehe.. All the best to My Fren lo... Have a prosperity Year... WooHoo...
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