Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Me Without My Soul, Brain N Heart..

Today back to work from 4 days leave... Recently go out very frequent, enjoy enjoy n enjoy... But y??? Y i always feel bad... Wats happening wif me...
It seem like my heart n brain is seperated from my body.. Heart feel bad n seem like hard to breath... Brain keep asking me to think but thinking nothing... Is just blank on my mind...
Feels so desperate n suffer... Wanna cry it out loud but no tears drop from my eyes... Wanna shout out loud, but hard for me to shout it loud.. Wat can i do?? Wat i really want??
Dear fren, u might think tat i am weird this few days... Is really not cos of u all.. But is my own problem.. I am the one who created the problem... I might think too much n being weird.. I did, i did try to change my mind... But it really hard, really really hard... I am real sorry sorry if i made u all feel uneasy... I know tat i am like a body without my soul, brain n heart.. I really did feel so... Feels like thr is no energy in me... When quiet, feel lazy to talk n remain silent.. when gila, make myself gila n laugh non stop...
Frenz... I really hope u all can pull me up now.. I really need yr caring hand to make me strong... Please fren, just a little might help a lot... Pls... I beg u.. I might not tell u wats happening... Not cos i don wanna share wif u all but i really don know wats on my mind.. aaaaa :'(