My FeElInG nOw.... :(

I don know wats my feeling n mood now...
I am happy n in a good mood this morning… Having u accompany me…
Thinks tat today might be a good day for me…
But after knowing something, my mood change….
Happy just ran off my mind n replace by moody….
Actual I do know wat I want, but is impossible to get it…
Being someone that is not really me…..
Keep thinking should I continue being like tat….
Am I really happy being like tat….
No no, I am not happy…. :(
Keep worrying bout this n tat…
Worry being hurt…
Worry being betray…
Worry being stupid…
Worry wat ppl might think…
Since tat moment, I keep on worrying…
Is it worth for me to do so…
I might go more deep…
I might hurt deeper….
I might be stupid…
But wat can I do now….
Please tell me…
Tell me wat should I do…
Tell me how to make u Happy…
Tell me how to make u trust me…
Tell me how to make u Believe in me…
Please Tell me… Please……

WaT m I tHiNkInG???

Wat m i thinking right now??? Is already 1.50am, n i am still online here... Tomolo have to wake up early somemore lo.. haiz....
I really don know lo.. But my heart keep calling me to write down my feeling now...
Things keep happen to me lo... Things tat i don know how to solve... My tears keep drop but i don know wat to do...
I am really suffer lo... i really scared i may seriously fall down one day... i really wish to talk to u, but i don know how to do so...
I also don know y things always happen to us... after facing a challenge, theres come another challenge... how long do i need to face all this challenge?? how long n how much challenge tat i still need to face o i can face... i really don know...
Whenever i ask u, u say nothing... I really do hope is nothing, but i can feel it n is not nothing... I do hope i feel wrong.. Do u know that whenever i ask u, i need to take out my braveness to ask u??? i do scared tat i might say something wrong o say something tat hurt u...
Wat can i do?? Am i care too much d??? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.........
I am a failer... Fail in everything... Fail in my Work, Fail in my Study, Fail in my Frenship, Fail in my Relationship, Fail in my family... Everything fail.... Then y should i stay in this earth??? Y Y??? i am totally a big rubbish in this earth....

MeMoRy...

Is been sometime i nvr post my feeling here d... Being lazy to type it all out.. O mayb i have a good life now.. Does not have to express my feeling here lo...
Blog is really a place for me to share out my feeling... N also a place for me to recall my memory...
There are lots of thing i wanna share out, but i am too lazy to share out all lo... hmm... i just share out some that is still in my mind....
1st thing in my mind is SHE Concert lo... Is the 1st time i went to a concert... Keep thinking weather to go o not, till the end i bought the ticket.. hehe... When to the concert wif my dear n meet up wif evon n her fren lo.. we did enjoy a lot in the concert, it seem like a open air karaoke lo... is worth to go n nvr regret buying the ticket... A day tat i will not forget... Thank dear for accompany me go & thank keong for fetching us to bukit jalil....
2nd thing is 1st time meet wif net fren lo.. Bobo & Sonia... We went to wong kok at 1u for our lunch lo.. 1st impression of them is bobo look so cool, whereby she is wearing black spec... While sonia is so cute n seem so playful... haha... After sometime at 1u, we went to ikano to see pets... I did had a great day n is happy to know them lo...
Next is angie 1 month old party lo... Congrats to Keong & catherine lo.. We did have a good talk tat night till all of us r tired... & i notice something from someone... haiz... Really hope that she knows how to protect herself n love herself more... Body is ours n only we ourselves can protect lo... Welcome Angie to this world lo.. hehe... Hope that u can grow up Happily lo.. Smile